My journal of spontaneity.

Profile: Name - FIELD Likes - Music (especially electronic), travel, trying new things Dislikes - Cars, AI art, people who think they know everything back to about me back to home

Summer work  5/27/2026

Current mood: Kind of exhausted Current tunes: Nothing new ----------------------------- Since Monday I've gotten back into my work routine. One of my past classmates signed up to work here, so we're coworkers now I guess. I was getting pretty tired of this job, so it's nice to have some things switched up. Also, went to a baseball game yesterday with some people I know, but I'm honestly not too big on sports myself. Which shouldn't be surprising, I'm literally making a website. And I almost forgot...Omori Update: I finally finished this battle that kind of got me stuck for over a week. I'm enjoying the game so far, definitely isn't the most lighthearted story, but some light still shines through cracks in the darkness. And I think that's about it for today...

Another weird dream  5/26/2026

Current mood: A little excited Current tunes: "Heaven or Las Vegas" by Cocteau Twins ----------------------------- Yep, I had another weird dream last night. I'll just paste what I wrote down right here: In the world of my dream, there was this well-known secret society/cult/gang run entirely by kids, called "SFML" or something, I don't exactly remember the order of those four letters but they were all there. It was some weird Lord of the Flies type of stuff. I was walking in this parking lot in the afternoon for some reason, when I stumbled upon them meeting. I didn't actually want to join, but I said I did so they would leave me alone. Also I think I was younger than IRL in this dream? I sort of watched them meeting for a while (I don't remember what for), and then I went with them to this old southern-style house (if I recall) that they seemed to own. I think I actually spent the night there. The next morning I kind of watched from a distance, and then I decided to leave. I think I was walking towards their fence when they noticed and started shouting. Then they started chasing. Apparently I had seen too much and was as good as a member of their "club." I began to jump the fence. I ran until I was in some sort of downtown area, near some train tracks at a pizza place for someone to pick me up and get me out of there. Unfortunately, the cult kids were gaining on me. I think an actual fight broke out here. I also think I went to hide in a nearby house. Eventually someone came, but, as I mentioned earlier, not before I got in a fight. And I was probably put on some kind of hit list as well. Weird dream.

Still journaling...  5/21/2026

Current mood: Tired Current tunes: "Ghost Town" by Kanye West ----------------------------- Life still goes on...this month has been pretty so far. Perfect biking weather...not much to say right now.

Life goes on  5/16/2026

Current mood: Resting Current tunes: "Push and Shove" from Omori OST ----------------------------- As you can see, I've got a song from the Omori OST here. Not a new game by any means, but I only now decided to play it for a slightly interesting reason. I made a deal with a certain someone I know: If they made a "tier list" of their favorite games, whatever came out on top I would buy. That happened to be Omori, and I'm glad of it. I haven't played a game this thought-provoking or surreal in a while. In other news, well, it's unfortunately been five whole days since I added a journal entry, so let me give a recap. On the 12th, was graduation ceremony at my school (for all the grades, actually). It was my last day at that school, so that was pretty monumental. Not too much else's been going on though.

Eh.  5/11/2026

Current mood: A bit impassive Current tunes: "Shop" by nicopatty ----------------------------- Nothing too notable today so far, but I did happen to have a vivid dream last night, which is pretty rare for me. As soon as I woke up I wrote down what I remembered. Here's an abridged version for you: "One ordinary day, I was minding my business taking a walk with my friend. While walking home, I happened to stumble upon this old shack that had some light coming from within, and walked down a set of stairs to find myself in this open headquarters area, filled with a ton of people in uniform moving about from place to place. It was for some sort of secret organization. I can't quite remember what it was called, though I feel it was related to something about a better future, I can't recall now. "Somebody noticed me and looked suspicious, but walked up to me and introduced themselves and the group's plans. Apparently one of their goals was for "all of them to become equal." Someone started to give a speech, and a crowd began to form. The speech was about everyone being equal, and potentially about overthrowing the government. "When it was over, more people began to notice me and seemed mostly welcoming. Yet a feeling of solemnity and danger hung in the air. But somehow, this strange feeling of finally being home came over me. I said I would think about joining, which they seemed to accept. I was allowed to leave. At home, what happened eventually came out. The more I thought about the situation, the more fear and anxiety-inducing the situation became. I tried to avoid them from there on out. "Later, I was at some sort of pool party, and they were there? Things start to get foggy here. They had some kind of plane, too? I'm can't quite remember if I got on, but I think I did? The flight was strange and they took me to somewhere even stranger. I can't remember much after that, but yeah, there's a dream about accidentally uncovering a secret political organization..." I don't have dreams very often, but as you can see, when they do happen they're quite strange.

Just kicking back  5/10/2026

Current mood: Relaxed Current tunes: "Xtal" by Aphex Twin ----------------------------- Lately things have been pretty chill, there was an art festival in town yesterday, which was pretty fun. Also, some people I know are graduating this year which makes me feel slightly old, like it feels like I was turning 13 just yesterday y'know? The summer will be over in the blink of an eye, and before I know it it'll be next summer. This is a nice time of year. Don't know if it's the best, that title probably goes to Christmas, but it's fun nonetheless. Some people online have casted votes for the best month, which you can see by clicking this link...

Recital and other things  5/9/2026

Current mood: Tired Current tunes: "Comfortably Numb" by Pink Floyd ----------------------------- The first weekend in summer has arrived, and I hope that I'll be able to relax. Just performed my song last night at the recital, and honestly people seemed to like it. Kinda cool to have finally performed a song live instead of just showing people DAW stuff. The last two years I've been taking a trip to California for a while in the summer, but sadly that's not going to work out this time. I used to live there, so I'd be comfortable returning that often. California has its problems but honestly so does where I live right now. Unfortunately, nowhere in the US is ideal when you take the prevalence of cars into account, and yes, I have a pretty strong disliking for cars. I'm not gonna write an essay on that here but just know I have my reasons. In this current time, having any sort of free time can be a danger for people. The way things are now, too often people on break who grow bored fill the void with passive phone/social media usage. Well, I aim to not do that. I have a few things planned right now: For one, I might be close to putting out another album (which I do very often at this point). Also, this website needs maintenance and new stuff going on. And on that topic, I decided to create a webpage dedicated solely to my dog, which you can see right here. I even made the mouse cursor a doggy paw, how about that?

Saying goodbye to bass...for now  5/6/2026

Current mood: Slightly Wistful Current tunes: "Stealing from a Thief" by Field Beam ----------------------------- This afternoon I had my last bass lesson, before I switch over to learning recording arts. I've been with my current teacher for a while now, so it's a bit sad to say goodbye now. Friday I have my last recital. I'll be performing an original song, which I've never done before. Kind of exciting... Honestly, I don't fully know what expect what next year will be like, but I shouldn't worry with the whole summer ahead of me.

Saying hello!  5/6/2026

Current mood: Introspective Current tunes: "Sweden" by C418 ----------------------------- Today is the first day of summer break for me, and I don't want it to go by too fast, so I'm going to start keeping this journal to make every day feel important. Shout out to KTSTW for the entire template I used for this blog, he definitely inspired my idea to do make this a thing. Also, I am aware that this journal, as of now, looks basically the same as the home page. Sorry. I hope this journal works out. In the past, I've tried keeping one daily, but I always forget about it. This time though? I'm not making any commitments. I'm just going to come on here when I have something important to say. Although I might try daily entries at first. On a different topic, man, I've been attending the same school program since 2016 (although I did switch locations in 2022, and yes, this school does have multiple locations), and I'm finally moving on. To be frank, I really did not like it, especially over the last two years. But I've got a lot to look forward to. This year, I'll be in an art school where I can study things I like. I'm definitely grateful for it. It'll be hard saying bye to everyone there though. Like I said, I switched locations in 2022, and I've really gotten to know the people there. Luckily, one of my classmates just applied for the same job as me, so I'll still get to see him. Honestly, can you believe it's May already? (Which is a beautiful month, by the way, although the allergies get to me.) This year's going by too fast. I'm still pretty young, but I don't want life to go by too fast. Maybe at this point it's early enough to prevent that from happening. Using social media can have negative effects in that area, so I try not to use it. But in the year 2026 that's easier said than done. Not only is tech more addictive now than ever, but it feels like everyone's using it, to the point where it feels like you "have to get a phone." Though it's honestly felt like that for a while now. (I know I'm kind of rambling, but this is my first entry, and there's honestly a lot I want to say.) Also, this is completely random and off-topic, but I thought it would be funny to mention that last night, I was listening to the White Album (by the Beatles, of course) and I happened to fall asleep during the last track, which is literally called "Good Night." I realized this morning and had to mention it. In closing, my daily word of advice is "Never trust how you feel about your life after 9pm." Personally, that's when I feel the worst about everything. (The quote actually comes from a Sonic meme. What a weird world we live in.)